From Fear to Learning

What an experience today! I went to a building where I can see no one, nobody is around and I nearly jump to my feet, nearly screaming when I realized that I am heading to a dead end. I felt so helpless, I cannot think what to do, whether to go back where I’ve been and see the faces of the guards who would realize I lost my way or would find another way out which I did. I couldn’t stand of prolonging my stay to that seemingly abandoned hospital, it’s dark, webby, dusty, eerie atmosphere which altogether made me imagined those horror movies I watched. After I have figured I couldn’t find a way out from the building, after the approximately four rounds of going from one way to another, trying to open a chained door, opening a window I thought I can pass through, I ended up deciding to gather the courage that I have to face the faces of door keepers than having to suffer the alarmed lights peering to my head saying I’m in close chances to see UFO’s. After finding a way out, I sat to a cement bench and sort what to do, I saw from afar that the gate keepers are talking, I observed where the students came out for surely it is the entry way as well. I pretend that I am answering a phone call while I walked pass to the guards, I avoid looking at them because I found out as I saw a couple of students peering from a left side of the small way near the guard’s place and that’s the way going in from the University. Imagine my feeling of shame and awkwardness. The guard might tell to himself or to the one he’s talking with how come someone gets lost the ways of its own School. Whatever they might throw about me what matter most to a person who almost in tears and disappointment, the fear you might find someone standing in the hallway or looking at you from the room is overwhelming and makes me throw up. So much experience in this School I just hope I graduate as Sum ma Gum Lauded and able to share this experience to my fellow graduates, in God’s will I hope that it will happen. Also, I hope that the gist of which I gleaned from my today’s subjects not the scary lost way of course may remain for the rest of my School years. The realization I came up from my Muslim Math teacher to take the lessons fun because it’s more learning inviting, to have a mindset switch to light and positivity so that learning could be fun. This vibe I almost forget and I am glad I am reminded today so that I can begin from now on to be glad and approach my studies in fun manner. I will take it seriously and with fun because my God is with me and surely He will favor me, grant me wisdom, provide my needs in all aspect because I am His daughter. Note to self: I am a child of God and He works for my good. He knows my desires and He certainly after my delight because my Father God loves me. Thank You Lord, I praise Your Holy Name, Glory and Honor all to You Father God, in Jesus Christ Name.  🙂

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Heal, restore, forgive..

1 Kings 8:22-61 New International Version (NIV)

Solomon’s Prayer of Dedication

22 Then Solomon stood before the altar of the Lord in front of the whole assembly of Israel, spread out his hands toward heaven 23 and said:

Lord, the God of Israel, there is no God like you in heaven above or on earth below—you who keep your covenant of love with your servants who continue wholeheartedly in your way. 24 You have kept your promise to your servant David my father; with your mouth you have promised and with your hand you have fulfilled it—as it is today.

25 “Now Lord, the God of Israel, keep for your servant David my father the promises you made to him when you said, ‘You shall never fail to have a successor to sit before me on the throne of Israel, if only your descendants are careful in all they do to walk before me faithfully as you have done.’ 26 And now, God of Israel, let your word that you promised your servant David my father come true.

27 “But will God really dwell on earth? The heavens, even the highest heaven, cannot containyou. How much less this temple I have built! 28 Yet give attention to your servant’s prayer and his plea for mercy, Lord my God. Hear the cry and the prayer that your servant is praying in your presence this day. 29 May your eyes be open toward this temple night and day, this place of which you said, ‘My Name shall be there,’ so that you will hear the prayer your servant prays toward this place. 30 Hear the supplication of your servant and of your people Israel when they pray toward this place. Hear from heaven, your dwelling place, and when you hear, forgive.

31 “When anyone wrongs their neighbor and is required to take an oath and they come and swear the oath before your altar in this temple, 32 then hear from heaven and act. Judge between your servants, condemning the guilty by bringing down on their heads what they have done, and vindicating the innocent by treating them in accordance with their innocence.

33 “When your people Israel have been defeated by an enemy because they have sinned against you, and when they turn back to you and give praise to your name, praying and making supplication to you in this temple, 34 then hear from heaven and forgive the sin of your people Israel and bring them back to the land you gave to their ancestors.

35 “When the heavens are shut up and there is no rain because your people have sinned against you, and when they pray toward this place and give praise to your name and turn from their sin because you have afflicted them, 36 then hear from heaven and forgive the sin of your servants, your people Israel. Teach them the right way to live, and send rain on the land you gave your people for an inheritance.

37 “When famine or plague comes to the land, or blight or mildew, locusts or grasshoppers, or when an enemy besieges them in any of their cities, whatever disaster or disease may come,38 and when a prayer or plea is made by anyone among your people Israel—being aware of the afflictions of their own hearts, and spreading out their hands toward this temple— 39 then hearfrom heaven, your dwelling place. Forgive and act; deal with everyone according to all they do, since you know their hearts (for you alone know every human heart), 40 so that they will fearyou all the time they live in the land you gave our ancestors.

41 “As for the foreigner who does not belong to your people Israel but has come from a distant land because of your name— 42 for they will hear of your great name and your mighty hand and your outstretched arm—when they come and pray toward this temple, 43 then hear from heaven, your dwelling place. Do whatever the foreigner asks of you, so that all the peoples of the earth may know your name and fear you, as do your own people Israel, and may know that this house I have built bears your Name.

44 “When your people go to war against their enemies, wherever you send them, and when they pray to the Lord toward the city you have chosen and the temple I have built for your Name,45 then hear from heaven their prayer and their plea, and uphold their cause.

4“When they sin against you—for there is no one who does not sin—and you become angry with them and give them over to their enemies, who take them captive to their own lands, far away or near; 47 and if they have a change of heart in the land where they are held captive, and repent and plead with you in the land of their captors and say, ‘We have sinned, we have done wrong, we have acted wickedly’; 48 and if they turn back to you with all their heart and soul in the land of their enemies who took them captive, and pray to you toward the land you gave their ancestors, toward the city you have chosen and the temple I have built for your Name; 49 then from heaven, your dwelling place, hear their prayer and their plea, and uphold their cause. 50 And forgive your people, who have sinned against you; forgive all the offenses they have committed against you, and cause their captors to show them mercy; 51 for they are your people and your inheritance, whom you brought out of Egypt, out of that iron-smelting furnace.

52 “May your eyes be open to your servant’s plea and to the plea of your people Israel, and may you listen to them whenever they cry out to you. 53 For you singled them out from all the nations of the world to be your own inheritance, just as you declared through your servant Moses when you, Sovereign Lord, brought our ancestors out of Egypt.”

54 When Solomon had finished all these prayers and supplications to the Lord, he rose from before the altar of the Lord, where he had been kneeling with his hands spread out toward heaven. 55 He stood and blessed the whole assembly of Israel in a loud voice, saying:

56 “Praise be to the Lord, who has given rest to his people Israel just as he promised. Not one word has failed of all the good promises he gave through his servant Moses. 57 May the Lord our God be with us as he was with our ancestors; may he never leave us nor forsake us. 58 May he turn our hearts to him, to walk in obedience to him and keep the commands, decrees and laws he gave our ancestors. 59 And may these words of mine, which I have prayed before the Lord, be near to the Lord our God day and night, that he may uphold the cause of his servant and the cause of his people Israel according to each day’s need, 60 so that all the peoples of the earth may know that the Lord is God and that there is no other. 61 And may your hearts be fully committed to th
e Lord our God, to live by his decrees and obey his commands, as at this time.”

 

 

There’s Joy in sharing

In Call to joy book i read about the wife of Billy Graham who was once asked when she received Jesus Christ in her life since she was raised in a Christian family then she answered, ” i’m not sure when the sun comes out but i’m certain that its shining.”

It reminds me of when i received Jesus Christ in my life. Like Billy Graham’s wife, I also grow up to a Christian family. I grow up in a church activities and seminars and i known Jesus Christ when i was just a kid, i memorize my meal prayer taught by my mom together with my two younger brother and we memorize verses our mom wrote on a cardboard, such as, Matthew 6:33, Matthew 5:16, Psalm 23:1-6 which i still memorize until now, my singing and dancing talent were honed in a Church even my social skills because i literally grow in a Church. I still remember when i experience God answered my prayer, i have an ear infection then and there’s something came out from my ear like a piece of paper, my parents are bothered especially my mom that she convince my father that they need to consult a doctor of my situation, she said i need to have a check-up to an ear doctor. Eventually, they agreed if there’s no rain in the morning we will go to a doctor. I earnestly prayed that night, even if the sky is gloomy, the moon did not appear and there’s no star seen in my view but i pray nevertheless, i prayed to God that He will make the day bright and no signs of raining when we woke up in the morning so that my father will allow us to go to the city for my check-up. Amazingly, God answered my prayer, as far as i remember, it was my first tangible answered pray’r. From then on, i make prayer a habit, no matter where i am, how i feel, and whatever the circumstances, how impossible it may seems. Praying to God has become my comfort zone even if sometimes the answers of my prayers are different from what i am asking or are not answered, some prayers are even on hold and in waiting vicinity but i will unceasingly pray.

When my Father died, my family became handicapped, i were 9 years old then but i could relate of how my mom felt, i know she’s struggling for finances, on how to raised us, what will she do. my mom’s mother instruct me and my siblings to be a little kinder to my mom and we need to stop fretting and quarreling with each other. We used to have more than enough food prepared on our table when my father was alive but when he died, everything change. Even if sometimes i get choked by his strictness but i couldn’t deny of how excellence he is in providing our needs. My Tito, the younger brother of my mom was a graduating student in pastoral that time, my father helped him for his finances and he is very much grateful to my father, When he knew that my dad died he wept alone and he regret those times he did not grab the opportunity to share to my dad about Jesus Christ gift of salvation  though he knew my mom already do the sharing. My mom recalled of how my dad breath his last, after they’d pray together he asked to sleep then he died while asleep.

My Tito shared to me his life studying Theology, He said, It was hard and challenging because he got concern more on how to pursue it regardless of his lack of finances. My Grand mother couldn’t support his needs in School consequently It made him asked for assistance to the missionaries namely Barbara and Mary from United States my Grand mother’s friends long ago when she was still single. She was one of the the translator of them in their neighborhood because only few of them can speak English. My Tito persevered and by God’s help claimed the fruit of his endeavor after 7 years.  He doesn’t want to commit  the same mistake again to prolonged the good news so he tell me about Jesus Christ, Of His eternal gift offered to everyone who believe and receive Him. I admit at that time, I couldn’t understand how salvation works but when my Tito asked me if i will receive Jesus Christ to be my Lord and personal Savior i answered YES and he lead me to a prayer. There’s no fireworks in my head, i am neither emotional nor questioned further i just listen to my Tito prayed for me and agree with him. I thought accepting Jesus Christ ends there but i realized as i grow up that i just made Jesus as my Lord, That means He will be my King, I will obey Him and give Him my life. I noticed as i look back that there’s no single situation i couldn’t connect to God’s sovereignty in my life. I just have entered an eternal relationship to my Father and King. Are there anything awesome, greater than that? 🙂

How about you do you still remember when you received Jesus Christ in your life, how did it change you?

Uncover my flair

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Luke 19:26

26 “He replied, ‘I tell you that to everyone who has, more will be given, but as for the one who has nothing, even what they have will be taken away.

My devotional today is in Luke 19:11-27, it wasn’t my first time to read this passage but it always hit me. i’m wondering if i really used and cultivate what God has given me. it made me think what are my gifts, the resources, opportunities He allowed me to possess to be use for His glory.

When i was a kid, i like singing and dancing but then again my low self-esteem hinder me to hone it, i don’t think i can improve myself, before i knew it, it made me insecure and frustrated, it made me realized, if i am not using what God has given me, i will end up miserable because i kept it inside that might get rusty in time.

Once i asked my friends how they find me when we first met, majority of them said, ( i’m feeling close), some of my friends compliment me for being feeling close because if not we probably not be friends , however, some doesn’t like it, they said, it can be annoying sometimes. i am not indignant though, we have different personalities but we shared the same values. I am glad to have a Christian friends encircle me, we can share our faith, testimony of God’s love in our lives.

But our Gospel last Sunday reminds me of Jesus Christ commission given to His followers, (Matthew 28:19-20)-to spread the good news, -to share it with my friends. The preacher said,(rephrase) the great reward we could have when we get to heaven is when our family and friends, the people that we know approach us to say thank you for your effort in guiding me to Jesus Christ. it bring tears in my eyes because it is true, it is a genuine purpose of reaching out, to see them in heaven praising and enjoying God’s presence. i know in my heart that i want it badly, i desire that God will use me so other people around me will be saved. i want to share my salvation to them and God’s love.

My desire to obey this commission progress in my heart, i hope it lead to intentional sharing with the people around me. i believe my flair should not be used flamboyantly but humbly and heartily to obey and honor God who created me.

Thrilled Novice

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how do i say this exploit euphoria in a brief words.,.yahoo! finally I’ve had my own site! 🙂 i recall those times i encourage my friend to create a blog site for the both of us, she is a graduate of Computer Science, i must admit that she got more knowledge in computer manipulation than me, sadly to say, she isn’t engrossed as much as i am with the that thought of having a blog.

oh, i read on how to begin a blog in other sites i browsed earlier, hehe, it says there i could begin my blog with an introduction of myself but not necessarily introducing my name, so in that note, i shall begin:

i came from a province of Mindanao, in Brgy. Laguimit Municipality of Glan, province of Sarangani, i have to stress this out for i believe most of you have not heard of this place occurred in the Philippines, hilarious to think but that’s how i see my place,so hidden, kept from the eyes of the adventurers, rich, nurtured and cared by the native people living in that place, my home place. i belong to bla’an-manobo-kaulo tribe in my mother side and my father is pure bred bisaya. i had experience being bullied when i was a kid, i feel humiliated when my classmates in High School laughed about tribe though i assume they have not known i belong to one of those, it made me hide of who i am. my life genre are romantic-drama, adventure-comedy, and spiritual-family. i have bunch of secrets i hide in my closet but i really want to spill it out to a person who will willingly listen my story and will understand me. prayerfully, hoping in faith that God will send that person.

i honestly couldn’t say if i am melancholic, sanguine, phlegmatic, or choleric..

i am easy to be with but hard to get to men, hahahaha,

enough of self-introduction, i am no longer comfortable..:)

just check my upcoming adventure this year in Manila and baguio city and get some list from me of places you can enjoy to go with reasonable cost but refreshing and costly fun, some thing you would want to visit again 🙂

Have a great day,

God Bless everyone!

evoke my interest

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may i just be honest to you dear readers, i have this alluring feeling with Alden Richards though i must admit i don’t know him much to base this feeling, i only saw him once when he had a mall tour in SM, CDO, Philippines. i find him attractive and kind-hearted. He is younger than me and i think there’s no chance for me and him, gosh, i notice myself liking guys who are truly high-end, those men who are definitely out of reach, nonetheless, i hope i’ve got a chance to know them in person. guys, i also like Jang Geun Suk, a korean actor, see, i think it’s kinda normal to like those guys, i’m aware, i’m not the only one attracted to them, the difference is, i made them my standard of man. do you think its absurd?what to do..(sigh)